Tuesday, October 29, 2013

On the brink...

Do you ever get that feeling you're on the brink of something?  You know.. you get that sixth sense, that thing you can't put your finger on, you're not really sure what's going to happen, but you wait... and you wait... and then you jump!  Or someone pushes you to fall off the cliff.  That's how I feel right now. 

My kids are happy, it's two days before Halloween, the sun is shining outside, and the leaves are on fire with red and orange, I love my husband, and life is good.  I drove home yesterday from the office and I actually smiled thinking how great I have it.

I spent the last 18 months of my life writing a book.  I researched the world of self-publishing and decided to go for it.  It might end up being a miserable failure.  I have no idea if I can write.  But I was passionate about it from day one and frankly, I became obsessed with the idea of getting, Nerd Girl, out there.  Well, it's almost out there.

I don't know what the fuck I'm doing, of course.  I've done what I think all indie published author's are supposed to be doing... I've created all the social media sites, I have a blog, a FB page, a Twitter account, and a Goodreads author page.  I've got a book cover from one of the best indie book cover designers ever, a formatter is currently making my book look beautiful.  And in a couple of weeks, maybe less than that, I'll be uploading my book onto e-book websites like Amazon, Smashwords, B&N, and iBook.

.... and then I wait. 

Of course, I'll do some self promotion, have a giveaway on Goodreads, beg people to read my book for free for a written review.

.... but then I have to wait some more.

Some people will hate my book.  Some people will love it.  What will all of this mean to me?  I'm not sure yet.  Maybe it will be anti-climatic.  Maybe my book will just sit there on e-book websites and it will soon be forgotten.  I'll know that I tried my best and then so be it.  I'll write another book and learn and grow in the process. 

But then maybe it will do well?  That's the exciting part.  That's the unknown.  Do I want to take the risk?  Hell yeah.... 

It's almost time....